Do you ever feel like your walking in a whirlwind?
Like things are so confusing that your head is spinning?
I feel like I don't know what end is up and I have a knot in my stomache that could probably set a world's record!
Out of the blue on Wednesday, Lee was offered a job by someone we know and trust. It's a regular salary job with good pay, benefits, and stock options.
At first, I was elated.
A regular paycheck every two weeks!!!
I could actually set up a plan to get out of debt! The kids could go to the doctor/eye doctor/dentist! Things could be somewhat normal.
I thought Lee was on the same page as me, but now I know he's not.
He has worked hard at building his real estate business and it is at the verge of exploding (exploding in a good way!). He likes what he does. He's good at what he does. But, it's such an uncertain business. You never know what you're making until the check comes. You work your butt off sometimes for nothing because the deal you've worked 80 hours on falls through. But with all that, he likes it.
So, he has to tell the man who offered him the job his decision this morning .
I'd like to say that I feel really good about the decision he's made. I should be grateful that he has taken into consideration what would be best for his family and not thought too much about what he would be giving up. But he's the one actually doing the work.
I want him to be happy
and feel good about his decision. I don't want him to do this because it's what I want. He says he's doing what's best for the family but he's part of our family. I'm not sure he's doing what's best for him.
I'm so confused and I feel horrible.
2 comments:
Oh my dear! Life is so hard! I think every man has to go through things like this. The pressure of being able to provide and the desire to do something he loves. Davey would be a stay at home Dad if he could, but that wouldn't bring in any sort of dough. So, since we've been married, he's had four different jobs in four years. He just got a job working swing shifts and sold his Fed Ex route. Swing shifts is not the ideal, but it will allow him to go to school and we will have benefits too! That was one of the biggest reasons to take this job. He doesn't love it, but I think he feels good knowing he is able to provide those things for us. Who knows? Maybe Lee will end up enjoying this job, or maybe he could do some real estate on the side. It will work out because he is doing this for the right reason. It will be best for the family!
Those are hard choices. Best wishes.
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