It's starting to become real to me.
I've been telling everyone,
"Oh, Jake's leaving this summer."
as if it's a long ways away.
Well, the truth is,
it's coming up fast.
We've been getting his paperwork ready.
Dentist and Doctor appointments are being made.
Summer plans are being talked about such as Scout Camp, Youth Conferences, Family Reunions and it makes me realize that Summer's around the corner.
I'd be lying if I said this doesn't make me kinda sad.
I think when it's the first of your children to do something big like this it is extremely hard.
When we dropped Elisabeth off at SUU the first semester,
I cried from Cedar City to Fillmore.
It was the most difficult thing I had to do.
But then it got easier and easier for her to leave.
Not that I didn't miss her as much, I think it's just that I knew she was doing what she needed to do and I could see she was doing well.
When Jake left for college, it was hard but I think I knew what to expect so it was a little easier.
(Also, I think it was easier knowing he was just a short drive away!)
But this mission thing is a whole other ball of wax!
Don't get me wrong,
I know it's what he needs to do and I know it will be great for him.
I am excited to hear where he will be going.
I am excited to hear of the good things he'll be accomplishing and the many lives he will be touching.
I know he'll be a fantastic missionary!
He's already shown the love he has for serving others and I know he will love those he is called to serve.
He already is an excellent teacher and I have no doubt that others will learn much from him.
I know it's the right thing to do.
It's just all starting to become real to me
and I have to be honest,
it's kinda hard.
5 comments:
Oh, Cari, I have been thinking about this lately. A LOT. And I still have over 2 years before Allen leaves. But I keep wondering, how will I do it? What will I do with myself when I can't see my boy for 2 years? I mean, I'm excited and I know he'll be awesome, but I love him so much. I will miss him SO much.
I guess that's what happens when you have a good boy. He goes on a mission and makes you proud, but not without a bit of heartache for the time you'll be apart.
I hope you can offer me advice when my time comes.
Is it dumb that I started to cry when I was reading this and he isn't even my kid? Because if it is then I am not admitting that I did that... it was just a hypothetical situation.
seriously, where does the time go?! he will do great & it will prepare you for the other boys to go--i'm excited to see where he'll go too. good luck with getting everything ready.
I get all worked up thinking that Caleb has 5 years before he goes...I know how fast 5 years goes. So I can understand how you must be feeling. Jake will be an awesome missionary! I can't wait to hear where he'll get to serve.
I'm sorry--I too know this pain. I had the hardest time with Luke and now here I'm doing it all over again.
When the time comes and it's hard and seeming long, please let me know and I will reassure you that the time will pass and it will all be good and they do eventually come home. (Just tonight spoke w/ two friends--one's son returns next week, the other in 10 weeks!)
Best wishes to you!
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