I must be bipolar or something.
I went from a spiritual high Wednesday night after attending the General Relief Society training meeting. It was AWESOME and left me fired up to work harder on my life and my calling. I couldn't wait to hear more at Conference! I was fired up I tell you! :)
Yesterday, I felt pretty good about things and certain opportunities that have presented themselves. (More on that later if it all pans out.) I laughed all day at everyone's April Fool's jokes and was happy Emma's dentist appointment went well.
Life is good, right?
Today?
Well, today is another story.
Is it the weather?
Is it the fact my bank account is ridiculous?
Is it the fact that I tried to "trim" part of my hair and now it looks like crap for our family picture tomorrow?
Or, quite possibly the real reason,
is it because it hit me that this IS the last Easter for two years (or maybe 4) that my family will be together?
Yeah, that's probably it.
I'm trying not to be one of those moms who dwell on things like this but today,
it's hard.
My family left today with me in tears.
(Except Scott and Cole because they left before I could even get my sorry but out of bed!)
Lee tried his best to console me but he had to leave with Elisabeth so they wouldn't be late.
Elisabeth asked if I was sick (bless her heart). I felt like saying, "Yeah, my heart is breaking."
But I didn't.
Max and Emma tried to stay clear of me the whole morning and I could tell I was upsetting them so I tried my hardest to stop and carry on.
Yeah, it hasn't been a great day.
But, then I got a call from Jake telling me he'll be home all weekend so I guess it was good to get it out today. I need to start focusing on a fun weekend.
I was warned that sending out missionaries is difficult but wonderful.
I can see that
this isn't going to be easy.
I went from a spiritual high Wednesday night after attending the General Relief Society training meeting. It was AWESOME and left me fired up to work harder on my life and my calling. I couldn't wait to hear more at Conference! I was fired up I tell you! :)
Yesterday, I felt pretty good about things and certain opportunities that have presented themselves. (More on that later if it all pans out.) I laughed all day at everyone's April Fool's jokes and was happy Emma's dentist appointment went well.
Life is good, right?
Today?
Well, today is another story.
Is it the weather?
Is it the fact my bank account is ridiculous?
Is it the fact that I tried to "trim" part of my hair and now it looks like crap for our family picture tomorrow?
Or, quite possibly the real reason,
is it because it hit me that this IS the last Easter for two years (or maybe 4) that my family will be together?
Yeah, that's probably it.
I'm trying not to be one of those moms who dwell on things like this but today,
it's hard.
My family left today with me in tears.
(Except Scott and Cole because they left before I could even get my sorry but out of bed!)
Lee tried his best to console me but he had to leave with Elisabeth so they wouldn't be late.
Elisabeth asked if I was sick (bless her heart). I felt like saying, "Yeah, my heart is breaking."
But I didn't.
Max and Emma tried to stay clear of me the whole morning and I could tell I was upsetting them so I tried my hardest to stop and carry on.
Yeah, it hasn't been a great day.
But, then I got a call from Jake telling me he'll be home all weekend so I guess it was good to get it out today. I need to start focusing on a fun weekend.
I was warned that sending out missionaries is difficult but wonderful.
I can see that
this isn't going to be easy.
5 comments:
From watching two people very close to me do it (I've got a few years left yet) I can tell you that before is bad and the actual Wed. is bad and then you start to get these amazing letters. Letters that bouy you and make you proud, letters that make it all ok, even worth it.
From my own experience as a missionary I can tell you that I was somewhat befuddled by the saddnes, mostly because I felt none, just total excitement about the journey. But it did help me realize that I was indeed important and loved.
Pray a lot mom, you'll make it though and be ok.
Hang in there, Cari! You must feel like that because you are a wonderful mom to those great kids!
Oh Cari, that IS sad. I can't imagine how difficult it is to see your kids go, but from a child who LEFT, I can tell you, the experiences they will have there are priceless and your kids will be happy in their service. I had the odd experience of the sadness of my PARENTS leaving on their mission, so I guess I understand how they felt now. The fact that you are feeling these feelings just shows the tremendous love you have for your kids and the wonderful relationships you have with them. You're such a great mom!
okay, just reading this made me cry. I can't imagine exactly how you feel, however, you have raised an amazing family...they are strong children, and even though it will be hard for Jake to leave in the coming months, just think of how much stronger it will make you and him. He is going to be a great missionary! All of your boys will be. Hang in there! And hey, who cares about the tears, you always knew that we Peterson's are very good at TEARS!
You have so much to be proud of, your kids are awesome--but, I know that doesn't take all the stress at of things--hang in there!
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